狗年出生的。2012年11月前我有一个非常幸福的生活。建议对brt的生活?

去年11月,我的男朋友改变主意(他是兔子出生),发现另一个女孩在他的国家。我们是在美国。我们曾经住在一起现在我们分开。有时我们还谈话和见面。我很心碎。它让我很难集中注意力在我的工作。我的心有时我很担心如果我忘记自己。我仍然爱他。我试图避免他,但我不能。我是一个受过良好教育的女孩分手,但这让我很弱。 Sometimes feel like to do something really bad though i know that is not good. I don't know what to do. I cry a lot. If i talk or see him i feel i get my energy back for work for a day or so. I am scared that i am dependent on him for my fortune or i don't know what is it. And another thing we are from different country with different religion although he doesn't believe in any GOD. And i believe on everything but when im in bad situation i get doubt on God. Because i feel i was doing right so what happened? I was very loyal to my relation. Never thought we will break up. That's why I m broken and hurt really bad. Do you have any suggestion for me? Plz need a serious help. Do you think he will be back or do i get over on it soon? I want one of these.. Either back or get over so that i can focus on my work. I would be very thankful for your help if you answer. Hope you will answer me and save my life. Thank you.